A love triangle is a romantic relationship involving three people. While it can refer to two people independently romantically linked with a third, it usually implies that each of the three people has some kind of relationship to the other two. The relationships can be friendships, romantic, familial (often siblings), or even pre-existing hatred between rivals.
Ok, now that we have the definition clear, we need to discuss my situations and get this shit clear. You all know that I hate drama and that I am a lay the cards on the table kind of girl.
There are two 'triangles' in my live that need some attention:
I'm not sure whether to start with the most recent or the one that's been going on the longest...guess I'll start with the most recent.
1) Jennifer, Nick, and Mike
Situation: Nick and I have been having a great time getting to know each other. I really like him and hope things continue to progress as they have been. It seems that one person has a potential to get in the middle of our relationship and that needs to be avoided at any cost. Mike is a great friend. He and Nick have been friends forever and although Mike and I have known each other for a long time, we have just recently started communicating on a more regular basis. It seems as though it is very possible for Mike to be a link between Nick and I that could cause some conflict if Nick and I aren't up on our communication. I am big on keeping conversations between the people who had them, but as we all know they tend to get out from time to time and we are all guilty of letting that happen.
Priority: My growing relationship with Nick.
Solution: To avoid having things become complicated and problems arising, my solution for this situation is simple. Nick and Mike have been close friends for a long time and I don't want anything to happen to that. Also, I am really excited to see where things go with Nick and I and I don't want to jeopardize that. I am going to stop texting with Mike and stop telling him more than casual conversation things. Don't get me wrong, I still consider Mike a good friend, but the communciation can't continue as it has been or I fear that it may cause an unintentional mess. Hopefully if these guys read this they will understand.
2) Chris, Meredith, and Jennifer
Situation: So you all know my relationship with Chris...he is one of my best friends and we know each other very well. He has had a rough year and that's all that needs to be said about that. Although his relationship isn't perfect (who's is) they are trying to make things work out. Meredith and I didn't get along at first...I think that she was concerned that there was more between Chris than there is. Once she understood that we were friends and nothing more we began to get along a lot better. However, she has spent a lot of time confiding in me about things happening in their life. Although, I am happy to be a friend and listen, one thing I will no longer do is try to help her in dealing with Christopher. Don't get me wrong, I want things to work with them...if that's what Chris wants, but they have to live that themselves. I cannot be the link between them. It took one simple question and one conversation for me to hit a wall with this middle man, triangle crap...I realized in that moment, that this wasn't working for me.
Priority: Christopher and my friendship with him.
Solution: Although I knew it wouldn't go over well, the solution was simple. I had to tell Meredith that she couldn't come to me for all the answers. I am happy to be her friend and to listen to her vent, but I cannot always tell her (or Chris for that matter) what to do when it comes to their relationship. They are in a relationship with each other and they need to communicate and work things out. As long as Chris is with Meredith I will be open to that and as friendly as I can be to her. She is a fun girl to hangout with. However, when push comes to shove, Christopher is my best friend and I have to have his back....which I always do. However, my friendship with Chris and his relationship with Meredith need to be separate...if they start to intermix it gets messy and I can't handle that drama. Thus, as it stands now...I consider Meredith a friend and wish them both the best, but I will not be involved in their relationship in any fashion. The most I can do is offer Chris advice when he comes looking as he always does for me.
*Now if things work out as easy as it sounds on paper we will be set. I do think that everything happens for a reason and what's meant to be will. I don't think that any of the friendships and relationships here can truly be affected my one person or one conversation. I believe that friendships and relationships are gifts to us and some are meant to last longer than others, but all have a purpose and how long they last, how they work out, and how they end if they ever do is beyond our control. So look up, have Faith, and enjoy the ride!
I love you all!
~Jen :)
Monday, December 29, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
2008 Wrap-Up
This has been a year full! I don't know how else to say it. Although, I am sure Jimmy V would be proud as most days I have laughed, thought, and cried.
Now for a little reflection...as most of the action started around April.
April:
~Left HPT
~Went back to Kansas Speedway to work the first race I'd been to since I left for HPT
~Jericho and I broke up
~Left First Management
~Spent a lot of time refelcting with CW and this really got me thinking again like always
~As he had been for the past few months, Bryant was my rock. He had been my emotional back bone through a lot of the drama at HPT and with my Grandpa's heatlh being so touch and go. I think that I leaned on him a lot when we started talking again...instead of Jericho...did this cause our breakup...NO...but it helped speed along the inevitable. And, yes, the what ifs returned once more as they had multiple times in recent months.
May:
~Drama with Jericho continued...as he had not completely been cut from my life.
~I tried to pick up a few extra hours at Kansas Speedway to get by while I continued my job search.
~Bryant had came through town and I got to see him for the first time since college. He continued to be a great friend. The what ifs continued to come up...he had even said that had he not had the gf from Germany that he would give it a try. Then my dumbass got all twisted with the emotions from the breakup that I actually confided in BNash...I thought that it was no biggie at first...but I quickly realized that it was putting all the what ifs behind us...possibly for good...I guess time will tell.
~Reina continued to be a great friend as we were both dealing with some things. This was only the beginning of the tightening of our bond.
June:
~I landed a great job. KU Endowment. Yes, I get to drive onto the campus of the University of Kansas everyday!!!
~I found out that Jericho had started seeing Chrissy...this girl he had been spending a lot of time with since are break up. I also was informed that she would be his date to a wedding that we had both been invited to. I barely said hi to him at the wedding and didn't talk to him again for a few months...cutting him out of my life completely was the best move that I could make...too bad I didn't realize that a lot sooner...but you live and learn, right?
~Bryant came through once again and got on a plane from TX to be with me at the wedding and spend a weekend here in KS. I am so glad that he did that for me and it will never be forgotten. That was very big of him. However, our friendship hit a glacier bigger than the Titanic could imagine and although the last time I saw him (at the airport) he gave me a hug tighter, stronger, bigger than you could ever imagine...it just hasn't been the same since.
~I began to spend a lot of time with Reina and eventually with Steph and some of the other girls at the Speedway.
July:
~Bryant and I were not communicating...and I couldn't figure out what the hell was going on with him...but it hurt as much, if not more than my break-up with Jericho.
~My Grandfather passed away. He had been struggling a lot with his health for a long time. Although this was so hard for everyone...I am confident that he is no longer suffering and is now in a better place.
~Bryant did talk to me the morning that my Grandpa died, but the conversation ended in a fight.
~I was starting to get out with my girls and break out of all the depression that I had let myself get into over Jericho and my job situation.
August:
~CW's Mom was killed by his father. This was a turning point for me. I had been so focused on my and my problems...but when the phone rang first thing in the morning and Chris told me what had happened...my problems seemed so small...in that moment, and for the next few weeks, nothing else mattered but Christopher and what he needed and what he was dealing with.
~Bryant and I were still barely communicating.
~My girls were my rock.
September:
~Cup Week at Kansas! Need I say more...It was great to see old friends and spend time with people that I love to be around.
~This marked the start of a closer friendship with Mike Espino also.
October:
~Mike and I had been continuing to chat a lot...
~Because of Mike and I being friends...I got a message on myspace...although I blew it off at that moment...little did I know the man it was from would come back into my life in just a few short weeks.
~I was spending a ton of time with the girls.
~I had been spending quite a bit of time talking online with Jeremy Bach. Jeremy and I had met years ago when I lived with Sally. We had liked each other back then, but I was still kinda talkin to Chris and I had just met Jericho.
~Uncle Dick passed away.
~I did something that I never imagined myself doing...I got in the car and drove to St.L to spend a weekend with Jeremy. I had no idea what to expect. I remember hitting Columbia, looking in the rearview mirror and asking myself WTF are you doing. I don't think I ever really figured out what I was doing, but it was a great weekend and I wouldn't take it back. I came home confused...and some days I am still confused when I think about Jeremy Bach.
~By this point I had started letting myself talk to other guys.
Novemeber:
~My friends were now calling me playa playa...altough I did have a 'list' at this point, I was so over the 'game'. It is stressful to try to keep track of all the guys and get to know any of them.
~CW and I had been through a lot the past few months...including Mer thinking we were trying to talk again. Finally Mer and I seemed to be becoming friends ourselfs.
~Nov. 7 the day after Espino's birthday we were all going to meet up at Danny's...and guess who happened to be there...Mr. MySpace...needless to say, we have been talking since.
December:
~I really struggled to get into the Christmas spirit this year. IDK what my deal was.
~As Nick and I started talking more....and went out for the first time...I began to realize that those other guys just weren't that interesting to me.
~Slowly I have started spending more time with Nick
~I have also stopped talking to all the other guys...of course a couple of them were only a step out of the friend zone and were easy to push back in...others are just donezo.
Now Where Things Are:
~At this point I have learned to be civil to Jericho when I hear from him. I am convinced that he wishes our relationship wasn't over, but I am at peace with it. I have no desire to ever go back there again.
~Bryant and I are definitely on speaking terms, but our friendship is by no means what it was. We went from talking multiple times a day about absolutely everything, to talking a time or two a month...and that's usually in the form of a text message or two. I MISS YOU B...I really do!
~I LOVE MY FAMILY MORE THAN ANYTHING and I am so happy that we were able to pull together this year and spend a lot of time together. I hope that we continue to spend as much time together in the future as we did this past year. I know that we were trying to cherish moments when we knew we had few to experience...but truth be told, we never really know, so we should cherish moments always. I am trying to keep them on the top of my list now the best I can...including spending more time talking with them all...including Jason and Cassie. Also, I have been trying to be there for Ash and Megs more.
~I love working for KU Endowment and being on campus everyday!
~I'm not sure I totally understand Jeremy, but he will always be a friend and I know some day everything will make perfect sense.
~Things with Nick seem to be going great...although I don't technically know where they stand. What I do know is that I truly enjoying talking to and being around him and that I have stopped talking to all the other guys on the list except him. I guess time will tell where we stand and where we are going...but I know that I wouldn't give up these moments and memories until then.
I am so happy with where my life is now. Each day I wake up and am excited for life...excited to see my friends, talk to my family, see where things are going with Nick...just everything! I am truly content. It has been a long haul, but I truly think I have came full circle. Through the laughter, the thought, and the tears I have learned plenty of life lessons and have really started to grow into me.
Thank you all for your patience and love...without you I wouldn't have gotten through everything.
Goodnight and I love you all!
~Jen :)
Now for a little reflection...as most of the action started around April.
April:
~Left HPT
~Went back to Kansas Speedway to work the first race I'd been to since I left for HPT
~Jericho and I broke up
~Left First Management
~Spent a lot of time refelcting with CW and this really got me thinking again like always
~As he had been for the past few months, Bryant was my rock. He had been my emotional back bone through a lot of the drama at HPT and with my Grandpa's heatlh being so touch and go. I think that I leaned on him a lot when we started talking again...instead of Jericho...did this cause our breakup...NO...but it helped speed along the inevitable. And, yes, the what ifs returned once more as they had multiple times in recent months.
May:
~Drama with Jericho continued...as he had not completely been cut from my life.
~I tried to pick up a few extra hours at Kansas Speedway to get by while I continued my job search.
~Bryant had came through town and I got to see him for the first time since college. He continued to be a great friend. The what ifs continued to come up...he had even said that had he not had the gf from Germany that he would give it a try. Then my dumbass got all twisted with the emotions from the breakup that I actually confided in BNash...I thought that it was no biggie at first...but I quickly realized that it was putting all the what ifs behind us...possibly for good...I guess time will tell.
~Reina continued to be a great friend as we were both dealing with some things. This was only the beginning of the tightening of our bond.
June:
~I landed a great job. KU Endowment. Yes, I get to drive onto the campus of the University of Kansas everyday!!!
~I found out that Jericho had started seeing Chrissy...this girl he had been spending a lot of time with since are break up. I also was informed that she would be his date to a wedding that we had both been invited to. I barely said hi to him at the wedding and didn't talk to him again for a few months...cutting him out of my life completely was the best move that I could make...too bad I didn't realize that a lot sooner...but you live and learn, right?
~Bryant came through once again and got on a plane from TX to be with me at the wedding and spend a weekend here in KS. I am so glad that he did that for me and it will never be forgotten. That was very big of him. However, our friendship hit a glacier bigger than the Titanic could imagine and although the last time I saw him (at the airport) he gave me a hug tighter, stronger, bigger than you could ever imagine...it just hasn't been the same since.
~I began to spend a lot of time with Reina and eventually with Steph and some of the other girls at the Speedway.
July:
~Bryant and I were not communicating...and I couldn't figure out what the hell was going on with him...but it hurt as much, if not more than my break-up with Jericho.
~My Grandfather passed away. He had been struggling a lot with his health for a long time. Although this was so hard for everyone...I am confident that he is no longer suffering and is now in a better place.
~Bryant did talk to me the morning that my Grandpa died, but the conversation ended in a fight.
~I was starting to get out with my girls and break out of all the depression that I had let myself get into over Jericho and my job situation.
August:
~CW's Mom was killed by his father. This was a turning point for me. I had been so focused on my and my problems...but when the phone rang first thing in the morning and Chris told me what had happened...my problems seemed so small...in that moment, and for the next few weeks, nothing else mattered but Christopher and what he needed and what he was dealing with.
~Bryant and I were still barely communicating.
~My girls were my rock.
September:
~Cup Week at Kansas! Need I say more...It was great to see old friends and spend time with people that I love to be around.
~This marked the start of a closer friendship with Mike Espino also.
October:
~Mike and I had been continuing to chat a lot...
~Because of Mike and I being friends...I got a message on myspace...although I blew it off at that moment...little did I know the man it was from would come back into my life in just a few short weeks.
~I was spending a ton of time with the girls.
~I had been spending quite a bit of time talking online with Jeremy Bach. Jeremy and I had met years ago when I lived with Sally. We had liked each other back then, but I was still kinda talkin to Chris and I had just met Jericho.
~Uncle Dick passed away.
~I did something that I never imagined myself doing...I got in the car and drove to St.L to spend a weekend with Jeremy. I had no idea what to expect. I remember hitting Columbia, looking in the rearview mirror and asking myself WTF are you doing. I don't think I ever really figured out what I was doing, but it was a great weekend and I wouldn't take it back. I came home confused...and some days I am still confused when I think about Jeremy Bach.
~By this point I had started letting myself talk to other guys.
Novemeber:
~My friends were now calling me playa playa...altough I did have a 'list' at this point, I was so over the 'game'. It is stressful to try to keep track of all the guys and get to know any of them.
~CW and I had been through a lot the past few months...including Mer thinking we were trying to talk again. Finally Mer and I seemed to be becoming friends ourselfs.
~Nov. 7 the day after Espino's birthday we were all going to meet up at Danny's...and guess who happened to be there...Mr. MySpace...needless to say, we have been talking since.
December:
~I really struggled to get into the Christmas spirit this year. IDK what my deal was.
~As Nick and I started talking more....and went out for the first time...I began to realize that those other guys just weren't that interesting to me.
~Slowly I have started spending more time with Nick
~I have also stopped talking to all the other guys...of course a couple of them were only a step out of the friend zone and were easy to push back in...others are just donezo.
Now Where Things Are:
~At this point I have learned to be civil to Jericho when I hear from him. I am convinced that he wishes our relationship wasn't over, but I am at peace with it. I have no desire to ever go back there again.
~Bryant and I are definitely on speaking terms, but our friendship is by no means what it was. We went from talking multiple times a day about absolutely everything, to talking a time or two a month...and that's usually in the form of a text message or two. I MISS YOU B...I really do!
~I LOVE MY FAMILY MORE THAN ANYTHING and I am so happy that we were able to pull together this year and spend a lot of time together. I hope that we continue to spend as much time together in the future as we did this past year. I know that we were trying to cherish moments when we knew we had few to experience...but truth be told, we never really know, so we should cherish moments always. I am trying to keep them on the top of my list now the best I can...including spending more time talking with them all...including Jason and Cassie. Also, I have been trying to be there for Ash and Megs more.
~I love working for KU Endowment and being on campus everyday!
~I'm not sure I totally understand Jeremy, but he will always be a friend and I know some day everything will make perfect sense.
~Things with Nick seem to be going great...although I don't technically know where they stand. What I do know is that I truly enjoying talking to and being around him and that I have stopped talking to all the other guys on the list except him. I guess time will tell where we stand and where we are going...but I know that I wouldn't give up these moments and memories until then.
I am so happy with where my life is now. Each day I wake up and am excited for life...excited to see my friends, talk to my family, see where things are going with Nick...just everything! I am truly content. It has been a long haul, but I truly think I have came full circle. Through the laughter, the thought, and the tears I have learned plenty of life lessons and have really started to grow into me.
Thank you all for your patience and love...without you I wouldn't have gotten through everything.
Goodnight and I love you all!
~Jen :)
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Family Time!
Well, it's finally here. Christmas Eve begins in just over 30 minutes. As I lay on the couch watching KU get BEAT...I am thinking of how ready I am to go home. I love this time of year and although it has been hard for me to get in the Christmas Spirit I am confident that I will be full of the Holiday Spirit when I wake up in the morning.
I will be spending tomorrow doing last minute preparations with my Mom and then going to my Aunt Sharon's to give my nieces and nephews their gifts, on to Aunt Martha's for dinner and more presents, to Potwin for lights, then...depending on my energy level I will either head to church or say my prayers and go to bed.
Thursday will be busy as well. Christmas morning at the house. By the way, I have no clue what's in my shaking package. Then warm pop-can cinnamon rolls for breakfast, the family up for lunch, cards and snacks all afternoon, back here to get my apt in order before the girls come on Friday, and hopefully some quality time with Nick.
I'm going to be a busy bee, but it will be a great couple of days!
Talk to you soon!
Goodnight and I love you all!
Merry Christmas!!!
~Jen :-)
I will be spending tomorrow doing last minute preparations with my Mom and then going to my Aunt Sharon's to give my nieces and nephews their gifts, on to Aunt Martha's for dinner and more presents, to Potwin for lights, then...depending on my energy level I will either head to church or say my prayers and go to bed.
Thursday will be busy as well. Christmas morning at the house. By the way, I have no clue what's in my shaking package. Then warm pop-can cinnamon rolls for breakfast, the family up for lunch, cards and snacks all afternoon, back here to get my apt in order before the girls come on Friday, and hopefully some quality time with Nick.
I'm going to be a busy bee, but it will be a great couple of days!
Talk to you soon!
Goodnight and I love you all!
Merry Christmas!!!
~Jen :-)
Saturday, December 20, 2008
'Tis the Season!
I'm sure that I will spend quite a bit of time reflecting on the past year the next few weeks. It has been quite the ride and I am very excited to see what 2009 will bring. I am going to try to stay focused on Christmas today...we'll see how that works out for me.
As you all know and many of you are a part of...I have a huge family, a very close family. I am very proud of that. Although I don't get home very often, my family is the most important thing in the world to me. During this time of year it is great to be able to communicate with everyone more and share our time with each other. It really is too bad that we don't take time to do this more often.
I generally love this time of year because I get to be creative and go shopping for the perfect gift for those I love. I always try to put a lot of thought into my gift giving, because the people I buy for all hold a special place in my heart. For some reason I really struggled with that this year. I had trouble getting in the Christmas spirit and trouble shopping.
Since Grandma Brown passed away Thanksgiving and Christmas have been a very emotional time for me and my family. We have lost some of those that mean the most to us during this time of year. I remember looking back on the Holidays since then and notice that I spent so much time reflecting and just enjoying my family in the moment. Just being so at peace with myself because I was so blessed to share these days with the people that I loved...it didn't matter what I was given or from whom...all that mattered was that I was with my family. I don't even remember now what was going on in my life at each of those times, yet they were to be cherished. One Thanksgiving weekend my Grandma Brown passed away, one Christmas I had just wrecked my car two or three days earlier and I was just relieved to be there with my family and in one piece, last year around Thanksgiving we lost Uncle Mike, and this year we have been through a lot. I have experienced a lot in my own life and we have experienced a lot as a family. I have lost two jobs, ended a relationship, got a really great job that I am proud to have, had a very important friendship tested to the max and it still isn't put back together right, we lost my Grandpa, I dropped a couple thousand that I didn't have into my truck among other financial tests, we lost my Uncle Dick to cancer, I ran off to St.L to spend a weekend with a guy I hadn't seen in 4 years with no clue why or what was going to happen, I have strengthed great friendships and tested others, I have learned that CW is one of the most important people in my life and although most don't understand us that's ok, I have talked to more guys than a football coach in a pre-game pep talk...but learned something about myself every step of the way, finally I have found a guy that I actually believe is worth my time and am learning to test myself everyday as we see where things go. I'm sure there are plenty of other things I've lived this year that I didn't list, but the point is, you live and you learn, there is a reason for everything, and sometimes you don't realize it in the moment, but what doesn't kill you truly does make you stronger.
I knew that my family was strong, but I'm not sure I realized just how strong we were until Uncle Dick got really sick. When we found out that he was sick we spent nearly every weekend sharing a meal together. At the end, when he went into the hospital it touched my heart everyday walking into the room and seeing every one of my family members there. When he moved to hospice everyone followed. It was so touching to look around me and see at least 20 family members all there at once just to be there, to sit together, to laugh, to cry, to wait for the inevitable. I wouldn't have it any other way. Even since then I myself have spent more time on the phone, in text, email, and online with my Aunts, cousins, nieces, parents, brother, and future sister-in-law and I never want to slow that down.
Looking to this week and all the festivities of Christmas I know that we will all spend time laughing together, crying together, probably arguing together, giving each other shit and taking each others money...and I can't wait! I truly believe that I have the best family in the world and I thank God everyday for each and every person that is a part of my family and my life.
I am so excited to see so many of you Wednesday and Thursday. I wish all of you a Merry Christmas! For those of you I will not see: be safe wherever you are.
To all of you...you are in my thoughts and prayers now and always!
I love you and goodnight!
As you all know and many of you are a part of...I have a huge family, a very close family. I am very proud of that. Although I don't get home very often, my family is the most important thing in the world to me. During this time of year it is great to be able to communicate with everyone more and share our time with each other. It really is too bad that we don't take time to do this more often.
I generally love this time of year because I get to be creative and go shopping for the perfect gift for those I love. I always try to put a lot of thought into my gift giving, because the people I buy for all hold a special place in my heart. For some reason I really struggled with that this year. I had trouble getting in the Christmas spirit and trouble shopping.
Since Grandma Brown passed away Thanksgiving and Christmas have been a very emotional time for me and my family. We have lost some of those that mean the most to us during this time of year. I remember looking back on the Holidays since then and notice that I spent so much time reflecting and just enjoying my family in the moment. Just being so at peace with myself because I was so blessed to share these days with the people that I loved...it didn't matter what I was given or from whom...all that mattered was that I was with my family. I don't even remember now what was going on in my life at each of those times, yet they were to be cherished. One Thanksgiving weekend my Grandma Brown passed away, one Christmas I had just wrecked my car two or three days earlier and I was just relieved to be there with my family and in one piece, last year around Thanksgiving we lost Uncle Mike, and this year we have been through a lot. I have experienced a lot in my own life and we have experienced a lot as a family. I have lost two jobs, ended a relationship, got a really great job that I am proud to have, had a very important friendship tested to the max and it still isn't put back together right, we lost my Grandpa, I dropped a couple thousand that I didn't have into my truck among other financial tests, we lost my Uncle Dick to cancer, I ran off to St.L to spend a weekend with a guy I hadn't seen in 4 years with no clue why or what was going to happen, I have strengthed great friendships and tested others, I have learned that CW is one of the most important people in my life and although most don't understand us that's ok, I have talked to more guys than a football coach in a pre-game pep talk...but learned something about myself every step of the way, finally I have found a guy that I actually believe is worth my time and am learning to test myself everyday as we see where things go. I'm sure there are plenty of other things I've lived this year that I didn't list, but the point is, you live and you learn, there is a reason for everything, and sometimes you don't realize it in the moment, but what doesn't kill you truly does make you stronger.
I knew that my family was strong, but I'm not sure I realized just how strong we were until Uncle Dick got really sick. When we found out that he was sick we spent nearly every weekend sharing a meal together. At the end, when he went into the hospital it touched my heart everyday walking into the room and seeing every one of my family members there. When he moved to hospice everyone followed. It was so touching to look around me and see at least 20 family members all there at once just to be there, to sit together, to laugh, to cry, to wait for the inevitable. I wouldn't have it any other way. Even since then I myself have spent more time on the phone, in text, email, and online with my Aunts, cousins, nieces, parents, brother, and future sister-in-law and I never want to slow that down.
Looking to this week and all the festivities of Christmas I know that we will all spend time laughing together, crying together, probably arguing together, giving each other shit and taking each others money...and I can't wait! I truly believe that I have the best family in the world and I thank God everyday for each and every person that is a part of my family and my life.
I am so excited to see so many of you Wednesday and Thursday. I wish all of you a Merry Christmas! For those of you I will not see: be safe wherever you are.
To all of you...you are in my thoughts and prayers now and always!
I love you and goodnight!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Trust Me
TRUST!
It is no secret that I have trust issues. The question is...how do you get beyond this? The last thing I want to do is punish a great man for something that someone/a few people in my past did. Bryant Nash told me when Jericho and I broke up that I would struggle with trust for a very long time and that there was no way that I could get around that. The truth is, he's right. No matter how hard you try to not let your past affect your present it's just not possible.
During the past few months I have tried to focus a lot on what I want out of a relationship and how I want to be treated. One of the things that I have really noticed about this free time is that I love spending time with my girls and I want to be sure that no matter what I don't lose my friend time. I know that this is important to guys as well. I think that having experienced a relationship where I had little to no friend time without a fight then experiencing the single life where I could have as much friend time as I wanted I will be able to balance my friends and my relationship without letting my relationship take over all of my me time.
The good part about 'talking' to a guy before you date him is the balance between time together and time with your friends. I think that right now this seems to be going well. The bad part about 'talking' to a guy is that there are no rules, no guidelines, and you really have no idea what they are doing when they aren't with you. I feel like things are moving along pretty naturally and although I have no idea if Nick is talking to any other girls and he has no idea if I am talking to any other guys it still feels pretty comfortable. Yesterday he said that he doesn't want to know if I am talking to anyone else right now because we are still talking, but once you start dating then that has to stop. He asked if I would want to know if he was talking to other girls and frankly I don't know. Part of me wants to know because I'm a girl...yet there's a big part of me that really doesn't want to know. I'm afraid that if I knew whether he was talking to other girls or not it would change the natural progression of our relationship and I don't want to throw off something that seems to be on the right track.
I think that this mindset is also helping me to work on my trust issues. As much as I struggle with trust I don't seem to be questioning Nick too much. I don't know why, but I don't feel the need to question anything or call him all the time when we aren't together. I'm not sure if this is because there are no labels yet or if it is just him. I have a feeling that it is just him. It really is exciting to me that I do feel a sense of trust that I haven't truly felt before. It is also a little scary. I wonder why I am so comfortable and trusting in him when I barely know him. Why do I feel like I can trust this man when I have had so much trouble trusting and getting hurt in the past? I am sure that part of it is his communication. He has been pretty open with me so far talking about his family, his job, etc. I think the fact that he has voluntarily carried conversations about these as well as many other topics makes me feel a lot more comfortable.
I hope that this feeling of comfort and trust continues, but there is a part of me that is scared to let myself feel this way. I am afraid of letting someone in. I'm scared of getting hurt! As scared as I am, I don't want to start over thinking things and making myself not trust him just out of fear. I am very confident that as long as we continue the way that they are we will be fine. Right now in my eyes he is trusted until he breaks that trust...
WOW! That was a fully loaded sentence...but you know me...I don't say things I don't mean.
With that I'll say goodnight and I love you all!
It is no secret that I have trust issues. The question is...how do you get beyond this? The last thing I want to do is punish a great man for something that someone/a few people in my past did. Bryant Nash told me when Jericho and I broke up that I would struggle with trust for a very long time and that there was no way that I could get around that. The truth is, he's right. No matter how hard you try to not let your past affect your present it's just not possible.
During the past few months I have tried to focus a lot on what I want out of a relationship and how I want to be treated. One of the things that I have really noticed about this free time is that I love spending time with my girls and I want to be sure that no matter what I don't lose my friend time. I know that this is important to guys as well. I think that having experienced a relationship where I had little to no friend time without a fight then experiencing the single life where I could have as much friend time as I wanted I will be able to balance my friends and my relationship without letting my relationship take over all of my me time.
The good part about 'talking' to a guy before you date him is the balance between time together and time with your friends. I think that right now this seems to be going well. The bad part about 'talking' to a guy is that there are no rules, no guidelines, and you really have no idea what they are doing when they aren't with you. I feel like things are moving along pretty naturally and although I have no idea if Nick is talking to any other girls and he has no idea if I am talking to any other guys it still feels pretty comfortable. Yesterday he said that he doesn't want to know if I am talking to anyone else right now because we are still talking, but once you start dating then that has to stop. He asked if I would want to know if he was talking to other girls and frankly I don't know. Part of me wants to know because I'm a girl...yet there's a big part of me that really doesn't want to know. I'm afraid that if I knew whether he was talking to other girls or not it would change the natural progression of our relationship and I don't want to throw off something that seems to be on the right track.
I think that this mindset is also helping me to work on my trust issues. As much as I struggle with trust I don't seem to be questioning Nick too much. I don't know why, but I don't feel the need to question anything or call him all the time when we aren't together. I'm not sure if this is because there are no labels yet or if it is just him. I have a feeling that it is just him. It really is exciting to me that I do feel a sense of trust that I haven't truly felt before. It is also a little scary. I wonder why I am so comfortable and trusting in him when I barely know him. Why do I feel like I can trust this man when I have had so much trouble trusting and getting hurt in the past? I am sure that part of it is his communication. He has been pretty open with me so far talking about his family, his job, etc. I think the fact that he has voluntarily carried conversations about these as well as many other topics makes me feel a lot more comfortable.
I hope that this feeling of comfort and trust continues, but there is a part of me that is scared to let myself feel this way. I am afraid of letting someone in. I'm scared of getting hurt! As scared as I am, I don't want to start over thinking things and making myself not trust him just out of fear. I am very confident that as long as we continue the way that they are we will be fine. Right now in my eyes he is trusted until he breaks that trust...
WOW! That was a fully loaded sentence...but you know me...I don't say things I don't mean.
With that I'll say goodnight and I love you all!
Friday, December 12, 2008
Family Emergencies
OK...we need to make something completely clear. Just because I live 30 miles away from you all doesn't mean that I don't care and that I don't need to be kept informed!
Yesterday Dad got hurt at work. He was nearly done at the hospital before I found out about it. Then the only reason I got the information was because I called Mom about something else and she happened to mention it. If anyone in my immediate family is headed to the ER I need a phone call immediately! If anyone else in the family is going to the ER then I need a phone call way sooner than later.
Now that we have that established.
Dad is doing ok. He got a cut on his upper and lower lip. They clued one fo the cuts together. He also broke his two front teeth. He will not be able to visit the dentist until Monday to see what they will do to fix that.
I haven't exactly got a picture perfect version of the story. All I know is that they were doing something at work and a wrench came lose it the floor and Dad took it in the mouth. Later in the day Preston said that he told Dad to keep his mouth shut or he was going to get it and Dad didn't listen...not sure how much of that is true...but we all know the kind of leader Pops is ;-)
Here is the picture of the injury once he got home from the hospital. Be sure to call and check on him...and of course, give him hell.
Take care! Happy Friday! Love you all!!!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
reflection
I posted this on myspace and facebook today. I have not edited it to fit this page, I just copied and pasted. So, I know the ending may be slightly out of place, just ignore that part. Enjoy...goodnight and I love you all!
After my blog yesterday I realized how much I miss putting my thoughts in writing. I know that after Jericho and I broke up and when Bryant and I were going through all that we did I wrote a lot...almost wore myself out with my blogs on myspace and notes on facebook. Yet, if I hadn't started writing I'd be in the looney bin by now. With that, I am going to try to get back to writing on a more regular basis. However, I think I will try to keep the thoughts on my blog site for the most part rather than facebook or myspace. I haven't given my blog site out to too many people because I want to be able to be as candid as possible when I write there...thus, I don't want everyone in the world to be reading it...I'd like to keep it for the people that I really care about and that have a direct role in my life right now.
I have debated in my mind over and over about whether to just put it out there on this blog for everyone to have or whether I should just tell you to send me a message if you want the site. Then I thought about two of the things that Reina always tells me: 1) "Do it the Jen way." 2) "Put it all out on the table...that's the Jen way...you don't like to hold anything back...you like to put your cards out on the table and let things fall how they may" With that I hope that you will all take the time to visit my blog page and please, let me know what you think whether you have an opinion, some advice, or just a friendly comment.
The blog is at racinjayhawk.blogspot.com
ENJOY!!!
After my blog yesterday I realized how much I miss putting my thoughts in writing. I know that after Jericho and I broke up and when Bryant and I were going through all that we did I wrote a lot...almost wore myself out with my blogs on myspace and notes on facebook. Yet, if I hadn't started writing I'd be in the looney bin by now. With that, I am going to try to get back to writing on a more regular basis. However, I think I will try to keep the thoughts on my blog site for the most part rather than facebook or myspace. I haven't given my blog site out to too many people because I want to be able to be as candid as possible when I write there...thus, I don't want everyone in the world to be reading it...I'd like to keep it for the people that I really care about and that have a direct role in my life right now.
I have debated in my mind over and over about whether to just put it out there on this blog for everyone to have or whether I should just tell you to send me a message if you want the site. Then I thought about two of the things that Reina always tells me: 1) "Do it the Jen way." 2) "Put it all out on the table...that's the Jen way...you don't like to hold anything back...you like to put your cards out on the table and let things fall how they may" With that I hope that you will all take the time to visit my blog page and please, let me know what you think whether you have an opinion, some advice, or just a friendly comment.
The blog is at racinjayhawk.blogspot.com
ENJOY!!!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
The Dating Game
Well, you all know that when I have a lot on my mind I like to write to try to get it all straight...so here goes:
Ok, so as you all know my goal was to take advantage of the single life for awhile and truly attempt to play the dating game and talk to multiple people until I found someone on that was really worth my time. Through this process I have come to the conclusion that this is really not fun! It is stressfull, confusing, and just plain hard. Some days I feel like I just can't handle that. Though it has been quite the ordeal and rather entertaining for my friends, I'm ready for it to be over.
I have met a new guy recently...well, we first talked about two months ago if you want to get technical. But, for all real and normal purposes we have been talking for a little over a month. He is super sweet and I like him a lot. However, like all the others, I don't know him at all and am trying to keep my guard up. I will say that it is very possible that Nick could be one that would make me want to stop talking to all the others...and give things a real chance. In fact, he's already making me feel that way to a point. I finally told Nate for the umpteenth time that I am over it for real for real! I haven't talked to Steve in almost a week...and let's be real, we never really talked much at all anyway. We have all obviously been confused by my friendship with Cupcake and that has officially made it back to the friend zone peacefully. He even finally talked to me about my current situation rather candidly. I wasn't sure that was ever going to happen!!! So, although there are a few guy friends with a little potential, most of my attention has been going to Nick...and regardless of what happens, I am perfectly fine with that.
That all said: Talking to someone can be so confusing. Especially for an over-thinker like me. I'm sure it really isn't that confusing, but you know me. I felt like I had done so well with not letting it get to me or consume my thoughts too much, but the last 48 hours have been quite the struggle. I have no idea what is going on and you know for a person with little patience that is used to being in control...that's a hard one to grasp. I know that I am happy with the way things have been going and that I really enjoy talking to him and spending time with him. He is super sweet. I know you should just roll with the punches and go with the flow, which I had been doing just fine with, but I guess I just wish I had some clue of where this was going or maybe where he was wanting it to go...I don't know.
Another thing is all the baggage from my past. Bryant Nash told me at the beginning of the summer that my relationship with Jericho and the issues from that relationship will affect how I look at and deal with relationships for a long time. At that point I told him that wouldn't happen, that I knew that Jericho wasn't normal and all guys weren't like him. Yet, as always, it seems like Mr. B Nashty was right again. I find myself questioning stupid shit in my head and being quick to jump to a certain thought process. We all know that there were probably three or four major issues in that relationship that could affect my thoughts, views, and actions in the future. I guess the question becomes: HOW & WHEN DO YOU TELL THE PERSON THAT YOU ARE TALKING TO & REALLY INTERESTED IN THAT YOU HAVE THIS BAGGAGE & EXACTLY WHAT THE BAGGAGE IS? There is Rob who will tell you just to chill and roll with it because you don't want to freak the poor guy out...then there is Mike who will tell you to just talk to him like you talk to me and CW and everyone else when something is on your mind...I guess there has to be a meet in the middle. I also know that timing is everything and I really don't want to fuck this one up because of bad timing of a single conversation.
So that leads us to, NOW WHAT?
Now that I have gotten all my thoughts out in writing...if Nick doesn't read this first, I will try to roll with the punches and go with the flow as much as possible...then, next time we hangout or when the timing seems right I will take Mike's advice and ask him where he is thinking he wants our situation to go and see where the conversation takes us from there. For now, I am going to wash my face...get ready for bed...and say my prayers...you know my philosphy: after you start to over-think something there's only one place for it to go...into God's hands and you just have to follow from there.
With that...Goodnight & I love you all!!!
Ok, so as you all know my goal was to take advantage of the single life for awhile and truly attempt to play the dating game and talk to multiple people until I found someone on that was really worth my time. Through this process I have come to the conclusion that this is really not fun! It is stressfull, confusing, and just plain hard. Some days I feel like I just can't handle that. Though it has been quite the ordeal and rather entertaining for my friends, I'm ready for it to be over.
I have met a new guy recently...well, we first talked about two months ago if you want to get technical. But, for all real and normal purposes we have been talking for a little over a month. He is super sweet and I like him a lot. However, like all the others, I don't know him at all and am trying to keep my guard up. I will say that it is very possible that Nick could be one that would make me want to stop talking to all the others...and give things a real chance. In fact, he's already making me feel that way to a point. I finally told Nate for the umpteenth time that I am over it for real for real! I haven't talked to Steve in almost a week...and let's be real, we never really talked much at all anyway. We have all obviously been confused by my friendship with Cupcake and that has officially made it back to the friend zone peacefully. He even finally talked to me about my current situation rather candidly. I wasn't sure that was ever going to happen!!! So, although there are a few guy friends with a little potential, most of my attention has been going to Nick...and regardless of what happens, I am perfectly fine with that.
That all said: Talking to someone can be so confusing. Especially for an over-thinker like me. I'm sure it really isn't that confusing, but you know me. I felt like I had done so well with not letting it get to me or consume my thoughts too much, but the last 48 hours have been quite the struggle. I have no idea what is going on and you know for a person with little patience that is used to being in control...that's a hard one to grasp. I know that I am happy with the way things have been going and that I really enjoy talking to him and spending time with him. He is super sweet. I know you should just roll with the punches and go with the flow, which I had been doing just fine with, but I guess I just wish I had some clue of where this was going or maybe where he was wanting it to go...I don't know.
Another thing is all the baggage from my past. Bryant Nash told me at the beginning of the summer that my relationship with Jericho and the issues from that relationship will affect how I look at and deal with relationships for a long time. At that point I told him that wouldn't happen, that I knew that Jericho wasn't normal and all guys weren't like him. Yet, as always, it seems like Mr. B Nashty was right again. I find myself questioning stupid shit in my head and being quick to jump to a certain thought process. We all know that there were probably three or four major issues in that relationship that could affect my thoughts, views, and actions in the future. I guess the question becomes: HOW & WHEN DO YOU TELL THE PERSON THAT YOU ARE TALKING TO & REALLY INTERESTED IN THAT YOU HAVE THIS BAGGAGE & EXACTLY WHAT THE BAGGAGE IS? There is Rob who will tell you just to chill and roll with it because you don't want to freak the poor guy out...then there is Mike who will tell you to just talk to him like you talk to me and CW and everyone else when something is on your mind...I guess there has to be a meet in the middle. I also know that timing is everything and I really don't want to fuck this one up because of bad timing of a single conversation.
So that leads us to, NOW WHAT?
Now that I have gotten all my thoughts out in writing...if Nick doesn't read this first, I will try to roll with the punches and go with the flow as much as possible...then, next time we hangout or when the timing seems right I will take Mike's advice and ask him where he is thinking he wants our situation to go and see where the conversation takes us from there. For now, I am going to wash my face...get ready for bed...and say my prayers...you know my philosphy: after you start to over-think something there's only one place for it to go...into God's hands and you just have to follow from there.
With that...Goodnight & I love you all!!!
Friday, December 5, 2008
You may think I'm bulletproof but I'm not.
Introduce yourself: I'm Jennifer Brown and yes I do live in a world that's all about me! ;-) j/k you all know that I am a very caring and thoughful person when I want to be :-P
It's Thursday at noon, where are you usually? Leaving the office to head home for lunch.
Which Shampoo is in your bathroom right now? Sunsilk and Dove
Honestly, if you could have ANYONE in the world , who would it be? I thought I knew once...but now I'm really not sure.
What are you listening to right now? KJ talking to Stacey in his cube.
How do you feel about your hair? I like it...although it seems to be growing really fast.
When, where, why was the last time you cried? In my bed at about 6:30am Wednesday morning because I thought I was going to die...after I had been throwing up approximately every 30 minutes for two hours.
What movie is in your DVD player? There's not one right now.
Last two numbers in your phone number? 66
What side of the bed do you sleep on? Well, depends on whether I'm alone or not ;-) Generally the right side I think.
Do you like roller coasters? No, not so much.
What are your plans for this friday? Relaxing and maybe putting up Christmas decorations. I've got to save my energy because tomorrow is a full day!!!
When was the last time you were up all night? Um...when my Grandpa died, back in July.
Where is your favorite place? A bench overlooking the football field up by the Campanile
Do you ever think about the price of gasoline? Yeah, but not too often...I'm gonna buy it regardless, so no need to think about it too much.
Do you sleep with a fan on? No.
What is the best thing about winter? Christmas and spending time with my family.
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking? I'm generally pretty outspoken...until I need to be...that's when I struggle.
Are you currently planning a trip? I wish.
Who did you last high- five? My Dad at the KU vs. MU football game! GO HAWKS!!!
What did you last buy? Burt's Bees and a shirt for Nevaeh at Hy-Vee.
Whats on your mind right now? How I'm getting sleepy and don't really want to be here right now.
Do you want to take something back that happened in the last week? Yeah, getting sick!
Do you watch The Hills? Guilty.
Can you sleep in jeans ? I can, but I'd never choose to.
Who was the last person you were in a car with? My Dad last Saturday.
Is there someone on your mind that shouldn' t be? No, I think everyone that is there is just fine.
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? Old Navy.
Do you enjoy late night phone conversations? Sometimes...depends upon who's on the other end of the line.
How late did you stay up last night ? About 9:00...I was exhausted after being sick the past 3 days and I was determined to be at work today!
What will you be doing at 8 AM tomorrow? Probably just getting up and around.
What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? Just getting to work.
What were you doing half an hour ago? Working...check requests I think.
Do you cry easily? Yeah, you could say that.
Were you happy when you woke up today? Yes!!!
Do you have trust issues? Oh yeah!
Do you like to have long hair or short hair? In between.
Are you wearing make-up? Yeah.
Do you have any sisters? Technically...no
Have you changed in the past year? Oh have I ever...this past year has been quite a ride to say
the least! But I'm learning that's a good thing! :-)
When is the last time you talked to number 1 on your top friends? I don't technically have a
number one on my friends list, but I've talked to a few people today.
How do you pronounce your name? Is it really that hard...
Do you know a kid named David? Yeah, if you count guys my age as kids ;-)
Who was the last person to make you laugh? I don't know.
Who was the last person you talked to in person? Dawn.
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? OH YEAH!
Where are your siblings? I have no idea where my brother is...I'm not his babysitter.
It's Thursday at noon, where are you usually? Leaving the office to head home for lunch.
Which Shampoo is in your bathroom right now? Sunsilk and Dove
Honestly, if you could have ANYONE in the world , who would it be? I thought I knew once...but now I'm really not sure.
What are you listening to right now? KJ talking to Stacey in his cube.
How do you feel about your hair? I like it...although it seems to be growing really fast.
When, where, why was the last time you cried? In my bed at about 6:30am Wednesday morning because I thought I was going to die...after I had been throwing up approximately every 30 minutes for two hours.
What movie is in your DVD player? There's not one right now.
Last two numbers in your phone number? 66
What side of the bed do you sleep on? Well, depends on whether I'm alone or not ;-) Generally the right side I think.
Do you like roller coasters? No, not so much.
What are your plans for this friday? Relaxing and maybe putting up Christmas decorations. I've got to save my energy because tomorrow is a full day!!!
When was the last time you were up all night? Um...when my Grandpa died, back in July.
Where is your favorite place? A bench overlooking the football field up by the Campanile
Do you ever think about the price of gasoline? Yeah, but not too often...I'm gonna buy it regardless, so no need to think about it too much.
Do you sleep with a fan on? No.
What is the best thing about winter? Christmas and spending time with my family.
How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking? I'm generally pretty outspoken...until I need to be...that's when I struggle.
Are you currently planning a trip? I wish.
Who did you last high- five? My Dad at the KU vs. MU football game! GO HAWKS!!!
What did you last buy? Burt's Bees and a shirt for Nevaeh at Hy-Vee.
Whats on your mind right now? How I'm getting sleepy and don't really want to be here right now.
Do you want to take something back that happened in the last week? Yeah, getting sick!
Do you watch The Hills? Guilty.
Can you sleep in jeans ? I can, but I'd never choose to.
Who was the last person you were in a car with? My Dad last Saturday.
Is there someone on your mind that shouldn' t be? No, I think everyone that is there is just fine.
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing? Old Navy.
Do you enjoy late night phone conversations? Sometimes...depends upon who's on the other end of the line.
How late did you stay up last night ? About 9:00...I was exhausted after being sick the past 3 days and I was determined to be at work today!
What will you be doing at 8 AM tomorrow? Probably just getting up and around.
What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? Just getting to work.
What were you doing half an hour ago? Working...check requests I think.
Do you cry easily? Yeah, you could say that.
Were you happy when you woke up today? Yes!!!
Do you have trust issues? Oh yeah!
Do you like to have long hair or short hair? In between.
Are you wearing make-up? Yeah.
Do you have any sisters? Technically...no
Have you changed in the past year? Oh have I ever...this past year has been quite a ride to say
the least! But I'm learning that's a good thing! :-)
When is the last time you talked to number 1 on your top friends? I don't technically have a
number one on my friends list, but I've talked to a few people today.
How do you pronounce your name? Is it really that hard...
Do you know a kid named David? Yeah, if you count guys my age as kids ;-)
Who was the last person to make you laugh? I don't know.
Who was the last person you talked to in person? Dawn.
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? OH YEAH!
Where are your siblings? I have no idea where my brother is...I'm not his babysitter.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
There's a reason for the world, you, and I
Are promises important to you? Absolutely
How many piercings do you have? 2 one in each ear
Have you ever seen your own bone? No...except for my teeth
Have you kissed someone in the past week? Nope
Has someone disappointed you recently? Yep
Are you stubborn? Yeah...sometimes
Any random drunk phone calls lately? As a matter of fact my phone rang at 4:30 this morning...but I haven't made any for a long time.
Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl? YES! Sometimes I wonder if I am wasting time on anyone now.
Do you know someone who has moved because they were running from the cops? Not that I'm aware of.
Have you had a friend for many years and then they left just like that? Actually yeah, kind of
How loud do you listen to your music? Depends on my mood and the song that I'm listening to
Did you know that mentally your body isn't ready to drink until age 25? No I didn't know that...but glad my mind is fully prepared.
Are you really going to dread this week? No, I am excited for this week...I think.
Favorite food? Mexican
What is more important, happiness or trust? Trust...how can you be happy with no trust?
Ever kissed someone else's girlfriend/boyfriend? Yes, I have.
How many people have you kissed whose name starts with the letter "J"? Umm...just one.
Do you take walks often? I used to...
What were you doing at 1 AM this morning? Sleeping
This time last year, what was your love life like? Struggling
Have you ever been kissed in a car? Uh...yeah
If you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean? I'm tired, upset, indifferent, or just relaxed.
Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again? Um...no, I don't think so.
Last nap? I tried lastnight, but my phone kept going off.
What did you do on Saturday? Well, today is Saturday and I went to the KU vs. MU game. Last Saturday...my nieces came to visit.
Excited about anything? Christmas and getting to know this guy I've been talking to.
Who were the first 2 people you heard this morning? My Dad and the chick at the McDonald's drive thru
What's a happy time you've had in the past week? My week has been pretty happy. I spent time with my family, got to hang out with Chris and Nevaeh, and went to the KU vs MU game.
Have you ever liked anyone that treated you like crap? Uh, yeah...too many times.
What are you listening to? How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
Have you ever had a difficult relationship? Yeah...wasted a lot of time because of it.
Ever been told you were loved by someone who didn't mean it? Yeah, I'm pretty sure I have.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Three is a good possibility someone is.
Whos the last person you talked to on the phone? My Dad
Are you a big fan of snowstorms or thunderstorms? Yeah sometimes...as long as I don't have to go anywhere.
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Without a doubt
Have you got drunk latley? No
Were you happy when you woke up today? Yes I was!!! I was excited that I heard from the last person to text me before I went to bed and I was stoked about the KU game!
How many piercings do you have? 2 one in each ear
Have you ever seen your own bone? No...except for my teeth
Have you kissed someone in the past week? Nope
Has someone disappointed you recently? Yep
Are you stubborn? Yeah...sometimes
Any random drunk phone calls lately? As a matter of fact my phone rang at 4:30 this morning...but I haven't made any for a long time.
Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl? YES! Sometimes I wonder if I am wasting time on anyone now.
Do you know someone who has moved because they were running from the cops? Not that I'm aware of.
Have you had a friend for many years and then they left just like that? Actually yeah, kind of
How loud do you listen to your music? Depends on my mood and the song that I'm listening to
Did you know that mentally your body isn't ready to drink until age 25? No I didn't know that...but glad my mind is fully prepared.
Are you really going to dread this week? No, I am excited for this week...I think.
Favorite food? Mexican
What is more important, happiness or trust? Trust...how can you be happy with no trust?
Ever kissed someone else's girlfriend/boyfriend? Yes, I have.
How many people have you kissed whose name starts with the letter "J"? Umm...just one.
Do you take walks often? I used to...
What were you doing at 1 AM this morning? Sleeping
This time last year, what was your love life like? Struggling
Have you ever been kissed in a car? Uh...yeah
If you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean? I'm tired, upset, indifferent, or just relaxed.
Have you ever kissed someone and never saw them again? Um...no, I don't think so.
Last nap? I tried lastnight, but my phone kept going off.
What did you do on Saturday? Well, today is Saturday and I went to the KU vs. MU game. Last Saturday...my nieces came to visit.
Excited about anything? Christmas and getting to know this guy I've been talking to.
Who were the first 2 people you heard this morning? My Dad and the chick at the McDonald's drive thru
What's a happy time you've had in the past week? My week has been pretty happy. I spent time with my family, got to hang out with Chris and Nevaeh, and went to the KU vs MU game.
Have you ever liked anyone that treated you like crap? Uh, yeah...too many times.
What are you listening to? How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
Have you ever had a difficult relationship? Yeah...wasted a lot of time because of it.
Ever been told you were loved by someone who didn't mean it? Yeah, I'm pretty sure I have.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Three is a good possibility someone is.
Whos the last person you talked to on the phone? My Dad
Are you a big fan of snowstorms or thunderstorms? Yeah sometimes...as long as I don't have to go anywhere.
Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? Without a doubt
Have you got drunk latley? No
Were you happy when you woke up today? Yes I was!!! I was excited that I heard from the last person to text me before I went to bed and I was stoked about the KU game!
Thursday, November 27, 2008
I can't think of a good name for this one.
1. Initials: JLB
2. Name someone with the same birthday as you: I don't know anyone with the same birthday as me.
3. Last thing you ate? A chocolate covered cherry ;-)
4. For or against same sex marriage: I don't really have an opinion on this...
5. I say Shotgun! You say? Shells
6. Last person you hugged? My Dad
7. Do you believe in God? Yes
8. How many U.S states have you been to? Umm...14 I think...
9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in: One
10. Ever lived outside of the US: Nope...never even been outside the country
11. Name something you like physically about yourself: Umm...my feet, my eyes, and my tatas...I can say that right ;-)
12. Something non-physical you like about yourself: I like to think I have a pretty big heart...I really care about people a lot.
13. Who is your best friend(s)? Too many to list
14. Why are you still up? Well, because it's only 7:30
15. Who made you angry today? Cupcake for not responding to my Happy Thanksgiving text...he's on a roll with the lack of responding lately. TIMEOUT!!!
16. Favorite type of Food? Mexican
17. Favorite holiday? Christmas
18. Do you download music? Nope
19. What illegal things have you done? Ummm...nothing ;-) Seriously...who would really answer that
21. Would you date the person that posted this? Um...no. I like men.
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? Not that I'm aware of.
23. Do you love anyone? Yeah
24. Do you like George Bush? Not so much
25. Have you ever bungee jumped: Nope
26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting? No, but tubing down the CO river is fun.
28. How much money ya got? Not nearly enough
29. Have you met a real redneck? Uh...have you met my family?!?!?
30. How is the weather right now: Cold
31. What are you listening to right now: Madea's Family Reunion
32. What is your current fav song? I can't say I have a favorite.
33. What was the last movie you watched? I'm watching Madea's Family Reunion now...but, I watched Twister with my nieces last weekend.
34. Do you wear contacts? Yep
35. Where was the last place you went besides your house? My parents' house
36. What are you afraid of? Losing my family
37. How many piercings and tattoo's do you have? 2 piercings...one in each ear
39. Have you ever loved someone: Yes
40. What turns you on? Wouldn't you like to know...sorry, I don't let just anyone know me like that.
41. What do you usually order from Starbucks? Peppermint Hot Chocolate
42. Have you ever fired a gun: Yessir
44. Fav. TV show? IDK...
45. Do you have an ipod? Nope
46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb? I don't think so.
47.Where are you? In my living room
48. Who would you like to see right now? Wow, there are a few people: Uncle Dennis & Aunt Becky, Nick, Cupcake, Christopher & Nevaeh, Rob, Nancy. I'm sure there are more, but that's who comes to mind first off.
49. Favorite movie of all time? Love and Basketball
50. Do you find yourself loved? Sometimes more than others
51. Have you ever regretted something you didn't do? Yes!
52. Favorite flower: I like Lilies and Roses
53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn? Butter, lots of butter
54. What Magazines are you reading? The only magazine I ever read is the KU Alumni Magazine
55. Have you ever ridden in a limo: Nope
56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away? Oh yeah...there's been a few
58. What's something that really bugs you? Fake people
60. Do you like Michael Jackson? He had some good music back in the day, but he kind of gives me the willies.
61. Whats your favorite smell? Hmmm...race cars at the dirt track, Mom's baking, fresh pillow cases, and how do I explain this last one...guys...you know when you hug a guy and they smell really good or after they've been at your house or laying on your couch and his smell lingers even after he's gone...of course this is only if you really like the guy ;-)
62. Favorite basketball team: KU Men's Basketball
63. Favorite cereal: Chocolatey Lucky Charms
64. Do you drive? Uh, yeah...I'm not walkin!
65. What do you drive? GMC Jimmy
66. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep? Just a couple of days
67. Last time you went bowling? Man, it's been awhile...probably April
67. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? Hmm...I can't think of anything really weird. I slept in a lawn chair at the fair one year and in my car in the parking lot at Sandstone one time.
68. Who was your last phone call with? My Mom
69. Last time you were at work? Wednesday
70. Whats your favorite state to be in: Colorado...I love the mountains!
Wow, I just realized whoever created this didn't know how to count...their numbering is all off!
2. Name someone with the same birthday as you: I don't know anyone with the same birthday as me.
3. Last thing you ate? A chocolate covered cherry ;-)
4. For or against same sex marriage: I don't really have an opinion on this...
5. I say Shotgun! You say? Shells
6. Last person you hugged? My Dad
7. Do you believe in God? Yes
8. How many U.S states have you been to? Umm...14 I think...
9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in: One
10. Ever lived outside of the US: Nope...never even been outside the country
11. Name something you like physically about yourself: Umm...my feet, my eyes, and my tatas...I can say that right ;-)
12. Something non-physical you like about yourself: I like to think I have a pretty big heart...I really care about people a lot.
13. Who is your best friend(s)? Too many to list
14. Why are you still up? Well, because it's only 7:30
15. Who made you angry today? Cupcake for not responding to my Happy Thanksgiving text...he's on a roll with the lack of responding lately. TIMEOUT!!!
16. Favorite type of Food? Mexican
17. Favorite holiday? Christmas
18. Do you download music? Nope
19. What illegal things have you done? Ummm...nothing ;-) Seriously...who would really answer that
21. Would you date the person that posted this? Um...no. I like men.
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? Not that I'm aware of.
23. Do you love anyone? Yeah
24. Do you like George Bush? Not so much
25. Have you ever bungee jumped: Nope
26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting? No, but tubing down the CO river is fun.
28. How much money ya got? Not nearly enough
29. Have you met a real redneck? Uh...have you met my family?!?!?
30. How is the weather right now: Cold
31. What are you listening to right now: Madea's Family Reunion
32. What is your current fav song? I can't say I have a favorite.
33. What was the last movie you watched? I'm watching Madea's Family Reunion now...but, I watched Twister with my nieces last weekend.
34. Do you wear contacts? Yep
35. Where was the last place you went besides your house? My parents' house
36. What are you afraid of? Losing my family
37. How many piercings and tattoo's do you have? 2 piercings...one in each ear
39. Have you ever loved someone: Yes
40. What turns you on? Wouldn't you like to know...sorry, I don't let just anyone know me like that.
41. What do you usually order from Starbucks? Peppermint Hot Chocolate
42. Have you ever fired a gun: Yessir
44. Fav. TV show? IDK...
45. Do you have an ipod? Nope
46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb? I don't think so.
47.Where are you? In my living room
48. Who would you like to see right now? Wow, there are a few people: Uncle Dennis & Aunt Becky, Nick, Cupcake, Christopher & Nevaeh, Rob, Nancy. I'm sure there are more, but that's who comes to mind first off.
49. Favorite movie of all time? Love and Basketball
50. Do you find yourself loved? Sometimes more than others
51. Have you ever regretted something you didn't do? Yes!
52. Favorite flower: I like Lilies and Roses
53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn? Butter, lots of butter
54. What Magazines are you reading? The only magazine I ever read is the KU Alumni Magazine
55. Have you ever ridden in a limo: Nope
56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away? Oh yeah...there's been a few
58. What's something that really bugs you? Fake people
60. Do you like Michael Jackson? He had some good music back in the day, but he kind of gives me the willies.
61. Whats your favorite smell? Hmmm...race cars at the dirt track, Mom's baking, fresh pillow cases, and how do I explain this last one...guys...you know when you hug a guy and they smell really good or after they've been at your house or laying on your couch and his smell lingers even after he's gone...of course this is only if you really like the guy ;-)
62. Favorite basketball team: KU Men's Basketball
63. Favorite cereal: Chocolatey Lucky Charms
64. Do you drive? Uh, yeah...I'm not walkin!
65. What do you drive? GMC Jimmy
66. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep? Just a couple of days
67. Last time you went bowling? Man, it's been awhile...probably April
67. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? Hmm...I can't think of anything really weird. I slept in a lawn chair at the fair one year and in my car in the parking lot at Sandstone one time.
68. Who was your last phone call with? My Mom
69. Last time you were at work? Wednesday
70. Whats your favorite state to be in: Colorado...I love the mountains!
Wow, I just realized whoever created this didn't know how to count...their numbering is all off!
Monday, November 24, 2008
TO STEAL FROM SARAH JEAN FARLEE AND THE SPIRIT OF THE SEASON...WE'LL CALL IT POTLUCK!
I am sitting at work right now bored out of my mind. It's not even that I am unmotivated to be productive or that I don't want to do what needs to be done. I flat out have nothing to do! Can I tell you...this SUCKS! There is nothing I hate more than being bored. It is 3:43pm and I have been trying to amuse myself since about 2:30pm...not fun! I cannot read another Bumper Sticker on myspace...I have no desire to look around on facebook. Texting isn't even appealing at the moment...and Lord knows that's something that usually keeps me entertained. Don't get me wrong...I love working on the campus of the University of Kansas, I love working at KU Endowment, the people that I work with are great (except my looney boss)...but I hate that I am so bored so often. I feel like it is a double edged sword. I could find another job, but it would likely not be on campus or in any way affiliated with the University of Kansas...which would be sad. I can continue to try to entertain myself for hours on end and hope something comes up in another department...or I can write random meaningless blog entries and bore all of you with my boredom. Looks like blogging will be the winner for the time being.
As some of you already know my wonderful nieces Ashley and Megan came to visit this weekend. They came down Saturday and spent the night. I hope they had a blast. I think they both did...although, I'm not sure Megan would ever admit it. It's amazing how many thoughts and questions a couple of pre-teen/teen girls can have...especially Ashley. It was really interesting to talk to them and hear their perspectives on boys, family, life, and other randomness. If you are interested there are a ton of pictures on my myspace and facebook pages from the weekend. About the only thing you won't find is a picture of is my nails. Ashley bought nail polish when we were downtown and we watched a movie and painted our nails Saturday night. Let me help you with the mental picture...imagine a baby shower with pretty pinks and blues...now...imagine that exploding onto my nails. Yes, pretty pink and baby blue every other nail fingers and toes. Sexy...right?
My lease is up at the end of January or sometime in February, I can't remember for sure when. I have been thinking a lot about where I want to live. I love my little apartment for the most part. I would really like to have a washer and dryer. There has been a lot of turnover in our complex and they have had a few shady people start to move in. Aside from that I am currently making about three trips a week to Kansas City to see friends. Not only am I spending gas money to get there, but without fail I am spending money once I am there. I have come to the conclusion that I am spending about the same amount of money between gas and entertainment in Kansas City as I would be spending on fuel to drive to Lawrence to work everyday if I moved to Kansas City. All of this has been on my mind quite a bit lately. I'm not sure what I'm going to do about it. I would like to look around and explore my options. I have been thinking of looking in Edwardsville, Bonner (CW's suggestion...but IDK), Lenexa, possibly Eudora (but it's quite a ways from the KCK crowd, so I'm not sure about there either), and still in Lawrence of course. All I know is that I want to be close to friends and have a washer and dryer. I feel like all I do in Lawrence is work and grocery shop. Everything else is in KC.
With that...I look forward to a short week of work, evenings filled with basketball, a Thanksgiving with my family, shopping with Mom on Friday, the KU vs. MU game with Dad on Sat., and Nick getting back in town on Monday so hopefully next week we'll finally be able to hangout!!!
Love you all!
As some of you already know my wonderful nieces Ashley and Megan came to visit this weekend. They came down Saturday and spent the night. I hope they had a blast. I think they both did...although, I'm not sure Megan would ever admit it. It's amazing how many thoughts and questions a couple of pre-teen/teen girls can have...especially Ashley. It was really interesting to talk to them and hear their perspectives on boys, family, life, and other randomness. If you are interested there are a ton of pictures on my myspace and facebook pages from the weekend. About the only thing you won't find is a picture of is my nails. Ashley bought nail polish when we were downtown and we watched a movie and painted our nails Saturday night. Let me help you with the mental picture...imagine a baby shower with pretty pinks and blues...now...imagine that exploding onto my nails. Yes, pretty pink and baby blue every other nail fingers and toes. Sexy...right?
My lease is up at the end of January or sometime in February, I can't remember for sure when. I have been thinking a lot about where I want to live. I love my little apartment for the most part. I would really like to have a washer and dryer. There has been a lot of turnover in our complex and they have had a few shady people start to move in. Aside from that I am currently making about three trips a week to Kansas City to see friends. Not only am I spending gas money to get there, but without fail I am spending money once I am there. I have come to the conclusion that I am spending about the same amount of money between gas and entertainment in Kansas City as I would be spending on fuel to drive to Lawrence to work everyday if I moved to Kansas City. All of this has been on my mind quite a bit lately. I'm not sure what I'm going to do about it. I would like to look around and explore my options. I have been thinking of looking in Edwardsville, Bonner (CW's suggestion...but IDK), Lenexa, possibly Eudora (but it's quite a ways from the KCK crowd, so I'm not sure about there either), and still in Lawrence of course. All I know is that I want to be close to friends and have a washer and dryer. I feel like all I do in Lawrence is work and grocery shop. Everything else is in KC.
With that...I look forward to a short week of work, evenings filled with basketball, a Thanksgiving with my family, shopping with Mom on Friday, the KU vs. MU game with Dad on Sat., and Nick getting back in town on Monday so hopefully next week we'll finally be able to hangout!!!
Love you all!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Another silly survey thanks to Paige!
Is the last person you kissed and the next person you'll kiss the same? I hope not!
Have you ever liked someone older than you? Yeah...generally do, but a couple years anyway.
Do you have a strong relationship with your parents? Very much so.
Do you know your best friends' middle names? Of course!
How late did you stay up last night? Why? About midnight just talking to my nieces...would've stayed up longer but Megan made Ashley and I go to bed :-P
What woke you up today? Just did.
Have you done anything embarrassing today? Not today...yesterday was enough!
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? A lot of times they aren't, but for some reason there is always someone that makes you think twice about it.
Have you ever kissed someone that was high? Uh, yeah.
Are your parents divorced? Nope.
Was it a boy or a girl to text you last? Boy
What is the last thing you said out loud? I'll talk to you later.
Can you whistle? Yessir
What are you listening to? Virginia Tech vs. Seton Hall basketball game
Where are you going to be at 4pm tomorrow? Work
Are you ticklish? Depends on who is trying to find out and where they are searching ;-)
Are you missing someone? Yeah, kinda.
Who did you last text? Nick
What is on your bed right now? Pillows, blankets, and pjs.
Do you have any strange phobias? Yep
What do you want most right now? For a certain someone to talk to me about a certain something...but I don't think I'm going to be getting that anytime soon...but that's alright!
Is your myspace profile private? Yes
How many true friends do you have? Just a few, but that's all I really need.
Are you a morning person or a night person? Um...probably more a morning person...but both kinda.
Who has your myspace password? Me.
What were you doing at 11:00 am today? Getting ready
How is your heart lately? Confused
Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? Not generally
Who were you last on the phone with? My Mom
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you laid in a bed with? Oh, wow...I don't remember...the last person I laid on the couch with is a different story...I know exactly who it was...but so does he ;-)
Where was the last place you went out to eat? Buffalo Bobs yesterday with my nieces.
Medicine, fine arts, or law? Law
Is your bedroom window open? Hell no, it's too cold for that.
What is your favorite soda? Wild Cherry Pepsi
Are you experienced? Not overly...but enough.
What brand of digital camera do you own? Kodak
Where did your last kiss take place? Um...standing outside of my truck in a parking lot.
What were you doing at 11:59 PM on Monday night? Probably laying in bed.
Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? haha...yeah sometimes...guess it depends on who I'm talking too.
Are you one of those people who obsesses over Hollister? No, I hate that store.
Who was the last person you rode in a car with? Um...Meredith.
Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks? Nah
Do you have anyone who you consider a brother/sister but they really aren't? Yes I do.
Do you like country music? Yeah
Did any of your friends go out with any of your ex's? No...if they did, they wouldn't really be a friend would they?
Are looks important? Somewhat...yeah.
Have you ever had someone sing to you? Yeah, but it's been awhile.
Have you ever been hit by a car? No
Do you know anyone named Ferdinand? Negative
When's the last time you went on a roller coaster? Oh wow...I don't like roller coasters...it's been
years.
Have you ever seen the movie Office Space? I've seen parts of it.
What's your favorite country? Uh, the US
How long have you been living in your house? I've been living in my apartment for about a year and half.
Do you know your mom's godmother? No, I don't know if she has one.
Do you wear a watch on a daily basis? No, I use my cell phone for that.
What's your biggest pet peeve? When people are fake!
What toothpaste do you use? Colgate.
Have you had the chicken pox? Yeah...I think Jason and I had them at the same time...I was like 5.
What is the tv last show you watched? IDK...Two and Half Men I think.
Are you on an instant messenger? Sometimes
If so, who are you talking to? No one right now.
Are you a good dancer? No, I dance like a white girl.
Are you a man? NOPE
When's the last time you went to the movies? Wow! I have no idea. It's been a really really
long time.
What movie did you see? I have no idea.
Are you wearing socks right now? Yep
Do you know any John Mayer songs? Yeah a few
What's your desktop background? I don't really have one at home it's just blue, but it's the
Campanile at work.
What's in your purse? Too much!
Do you crimp your hair? No way
What do you think of Laguna Beach? It's crazy drama...but I still watched it.
What do you think of MTV in general? It's alright.
What is your favorite magazine? I don't really read any magazines
Are you a Pisces? Nope...Aquarius.
Did you go trick-or-treating this year? Kind of...I went with Meredith to take Nevaeh and Elijah.
Have you ever been to NYC? Not yet
What brand of battery do you use? Whatever is on sale.
How many house keys do you lose a year? None...do people usually lose their house keys???
When was the last time you played a video game? Oh my...sometime this summer.
Have you ever spied on your neighbors? No, not so much.
If you could kill one celebrity and never get caught whom would it be and why? No one...that's
not cool.
Are you good at word searches? Yes
Who's your favorite cereal box character? The Lucky Charms Leprechaun
Are you dating anyone currently? No, just talking.
Do you like the person you are becoming? Yeah, at the moment.
Has anyone ever called you perfect before? Ha, yeah, but not sure they really ever meant it.
What song is stuck in your head? There's not one right now.
Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, who do you want it to be? No one...they need to take their drunk asses home.
Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's? Dad's
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? Yes!
What did you do today? Took my nieces home, went shopping with Mom and Cassie for a bit, now I'm being a bum.
Do you think too much or too little? Generally too much!
Where's the shirt from that you're wearing? The Alumni Association I think.
What was your first thought when you looked in the mirror this morning? Sexy...NOT!
Have you ridden in someone else's car today? Nope
Are you a cuddler? Usually yeah.
Who did you last go out to eat with? My nieces
Any summer plans for 2009? Working...like every other time of the year.
What did you eat for lunch today? Chicken Strips from PETRO.
The last song you heard? I don't remember, I was on the phone at the same time.
Have you dated anyone on your top 4? The top 4 on myspace change randomly...so I'd have to say yes, depending who's on the list at any given point in time.
Has your number 2 on your friends ever made you cry? There aren't too many people on my friends list that have made me cry and the select few who have already know.
How's your life lately? Good...slightly stressful at times...but good!
Do you know anyone that is currently locked up? Yes actually.
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? This summer.
When is the last time you took a nap? I don't have a clue...I don't take naps.
Who was the last person that sent you a myspace message? Nick
Have you kissed anyone in the last month? Yes.
Have you ever liked someone older than you? Yeah...generally do, but a couple years anyway.
Do you have a strong relationship with your parents? Very much so.
Do you know your best friends' middle names? Of course!
How late did you stay up last night? Why? About midnight just talking to my nieces...would've stayed up longer but Megan made Ashley and I go to bed :-P
What woke you up today? Just did.
Have you done anything embarrassing today? Not today...yesterday was enough!
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it? A lot of times they aren't, but for some reason there is always someone that makes you think twice about it.
Have you ever kissed someone that was high? Uh, yeah.
Are your parents divorced? Nope.
Was it a boy or a girl to text you last? Boy
What is the last thing you said out loud? I'll talk to you later.
Can you whistle? Yessir
What are you listening to? Virginia Tech vs. Seton Hall basketball game
Where are you going to be at 4pm tomorrow? Work
Are you ticklish? Depends on who is trying to find out and where they are searching ;-)
Are you missing someone? Yeah, kinda.
Who did you last text? Nick
What is on your bed right now? Pillows, blankets, and pjs.
Do you have any strange phobias? Yep
What do you want most right now? For a certain someone to talk to me about a certain something...but I don't think I'm going to be getting that anytime soon...but that's alright!
Is your myspace profile private? Yes
How many true friends do you have? Just a few, but that's all I really need.
Are you a morning person or a night person? Um...probably more a morning person...but both kinda.
Who has your myspace password? Me.
What were you doing at 11:00 am today? Getting ready
How is your heart lately? Confused
Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? Not generally
Who were you last on the phone with? My Mom
Who was the last person of the opposite sex you laid in a bed with? Oh, wow...I don't remember...the last person I laid on the couch with is a different story...I know exactly who it was...but so does he ;-)
Where was the last place you went out to eat? Buffalo Bobs yesterday with my nieces.
Medicine, fine arts, or law? Law
Is your bedroom window open? Hell no, it's too cold for that.
What is your favorite soda? Wild Cherry Pepsi
Are you experienced? Not overly...but enough.
What brand of digital camera do you own? Kodak
Where did your last kiss take place? Um...standing outside of my truck in a parking lot.
What were you doing at 11:59 PM on Monday night? Probably laying in bed.
Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? haha...yeah sometimes...guess it depends on who I'm talking too.
Are you one of those people who obsesses over Hollister? No, I hate that store.
Who was the last person you rode in a car with? Um...Meredith.
Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks? Nah
Do you have anyone who you consider a brother/sister but they really aren't? Yes I do.
Do you like country music? Yeah
Did any of your friends go out with any of your ex's? No...if they did, they wouldn't really be a friend would they?
Are looks important? Somewhat...yeah.
Have you ever had someone sing to you? Yeah, but it's been awhile.
Have you ever been hit by a car? No
Do you know anyone named Ferdinand? Negative
When's the last time you went on a roller coaster? Oh wow...I don't like roller coasters...it's been
years.
Have you ever seen the movie Office Space? I've seen parts of it.
What's your favorite country? Uh, the US
How long have you been living in your house? I've been living in my apartment for about a year and half.
Do you know your mom's godmother? No, I don't know if she has one.
Do you wear a watch on a daily basis? No, I use my cell phone for that.
What's your biggest pet peeve? When people are fake!
What toothpaste do you use? Colgate.
Have you had the chicken pox? Yeah...I think Jason and I had them at the same time...I was like 5.
What is the tv last show you watched? IDK...Two and Half Men I think.
Are you on an instant messenger? Sometimes
If so, who are you talking to? No one right now.
Are you a good dancer? No, I dance like a white girl.
Are you a man? NOPE
When's the last time you went to the movies? Wow! I have no idea. It's been a really really
long time.
What movie did you see? I have no idea.
Are you wearing socks right now? Yep
Do you know any John Mayer songs? Yeah a few
What's your desktop background? I don't really have one at home it's just blue, but it's the
Campanile at work.
What's in your purse? Too much!
Do you crimp your hair? No way
What do you think of Laguna Beach? It's crazy drama...but I still watched it.
What do you think of MTV in general? It's alright.
What is your favorite magazine? I don't really read any magazines
Are you a Pisces? Nope...Aquarius.
Did you go trick-or-treating this year? Kind of...I went with Meredith to take Nevaeh and Elijah.
Have you ever been to NYC? Not yet
What brand of battery do you use? Whatever is on sale.
How many house keys do you lose a year? None...do people usually lose their house keys???
When was the last time you played a video game? Oh my...sometime this summer.
Have you ever spied on your neighbors? No, not so much.
If you could kill one celebrity and never get caught whom would it be and why? No one...that's
not cool.
Are you good at word searches? Yes
Who's your favorite cereal box character? The Lucky Charms Leprechaun
Are you dating anyone currently? No, just talking.
Do you like the person you are becoming? Yeah, at the moment.
Has anyone ever called you perfect before? Ha, yeah, but not sure they really ever meant it.
What song is stuck in your head? There's not one right now.
Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, who do you want it to be? No one...they need to take their drunk asses home.
Are your eyes the same color as your mom's or dad's? Dad's
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? Yes!
What did you do today? Took my nieces home, went shopping with Mom and Cassie for a bit, now I'm being a bum.
Do you think too much or too little? Generally too much!
Where's the shirt from that you're wearing? The Alumni Association I think.
What was your first thought when you looked in the mirror this morning? Sexy...NOT!
Have you ridden in someone else's car today? Nope
Are you a cuddler? Usually yeah.
Who did you last go out to eat with? My nieces
Any summer plans for 2009? Working...like every other time of the year.
What did you eat for lunch today? Chicken Strips from PETRO.
The last song you heard? I don't remember, I was on the phone at the same time.
Have you dated anyone on your top 4? The top 4 on myspace change randomly...so I'd have to say yes, depending who's on the list at any given point in time.
Has your number 2 on your friends ever made you cry? There aren't too many people on my friends list that have made me cry and the select few who have already know.
How's your life lately? Good...slightly stressful at times...but good!
Do you know anyone that is currently locked up? Yes actually.
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? This summer.
When is the last time you took a nap? I don't have a clue...I don't take naps.
Who was the last person that sent you a myspace message? Nick
Have you kissed anyone in the last month? Yes.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
If you're thinking about it...it could be you...
Could you see yourself with someone forever? Yes
Have you been to hooters? Of course
Do you get along with your bestfriends boyfriend/ girlfriend? Yeah...as far as I know.
Do you know anyone who's having a baby? Not that I know of.
Have you ever been called heartless? I'm sure a time or two.
Do you think you've made a difference in anyones life? I hope so.
Name something you're doing tomorrow? Work.
When was the last time you had starbucks? About a week ago.
Do you sleep on your stomach? Sometimes.
What are you listening to? Absolutely nothing.
Are you ticklish? Depends on who is trying to figure it out and where they are searching ;-)
Do you crack your knuckles? Absolutely not.
Who was the last person to give you a hug? My Dad.
Are you in a good mood? Yeppers.
Are you excited for something? Yeah, that everybody seems to be on the same page for once...and of course the Holidays.
Is there someone you can trust 100%? Nope.
Last person you said "I hate you" to? I don't know...I can't think of anyone...I don't say that very often and when I do, it's almost always a joke.
Will you talk to the person you like tonight? Well, I don't know...ask him.
Do you miss anyone? Absolutely.
What was the first thing you thought this morning? When I woke up at 3am like it was time to get up or when my alarm went off? When my alarm went off I thought, just 5 more minutes please.
What did you do last night? Went to KC for dinner and shopping...and I actually spent money on myself!!!
Do you like your bed? Yes...
Will this weekend be a good one? I hope so.
What were you doing at 7am this morning? I was in the shower ;-)
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more? Without a doubt!
Have you ever slept in a bed with the opposite sex? Uh...yeah.
What were the last words you said to your dad? I love you too...later.
What did you do last Saturday? Went to Top City to go to the burial for my uncle, watched the KU game and had lunch with the fam, and went to my first ever Passions Party with Meredith.
What woke you up this morning? My mind at 3am...not cool...well actually it was ok, because of what was on my mind, but anyway...the alarm clock went off at 6, 6:30, and 6:45...I finally listened to it at 6:45.
Is tomorrow going to be a good night? Hope so...don't have any plans just yet.
Who was the last person you rode in a car with besides family? Meredith
Who do you wish you were with right now? Hmmm....if you think it's you, you might just be right, but it never hurts to ask.
Who was the last person who left you a comment? I think Megs just left a comment on one of my facebook photos.
How did you and your number 2 become friends? My number two? I don't even know what that means....
Who was the last person you cried in front of? Dawn...I was slightly stressed out yesterday...thanks a lot Cupcake! Good news is it all worked out...so no worries. I'm not even sure why it made me cry in the first place...next question please!
Do you fall for people easily? IDK about that...if you can get and keep my curiousity I have no problem giving you attention...but I have a really low BS tolerance, so I'm more likely to be quick at moving on than falling hard.
What did you do this weekend? I went to an Alumni event Friday night, I already told you what I did Saturday, and Sunday I just did chores around the house.
Do you forgive or forget? I forgive, but I never forget.
What are you thinking about right now? Lots of things.
What time did you go to bed last night? 11:30ish
What are you currently doing? This and talking to Megan
Do you hate anyone? No, I don't like that word.
What was the last movie you watched? The Strangers...I don't recommend you watch it alone...thanks for not making me do so ;-)
Are you a beach or a snowy mountain person? Both.
Have you ever been tied to a chair? Yeah, my little brother was an ass when we were growing up! :-P
Where is the person who has your heart at this moment? I don't think anyone has my heart at this very moment...but feel free to work on that.
Can you handle the truth? Generally.
Did you cry today? No.
Is there anyone who understands your relationship status? Yeah...I think there are a couple of people who get it.
Have you been to hooters? Of course
Do you get along with your bestfriends boyfriend/ girlfriend? Yeah...as far as I know.
Do you know anyone who's having a baby? Not that I know of.
Have you ever been called heartless? I'm sure a time or two.
Do you think you've made a difference in anyones life? I hope so.
Name something you're doing tomorrow? Work.
When was the last time you had starbucks? About a week ago.
Do you sleep on your stomach? Sometimes.
What are you listening to? Absolutely nothing.
Are you ticklish? Depends on who is trying to figure it out and where they are searching ;-)
Do you crack your knuckles? Absolutely not.
Who was the last person to give you a hug? My Dad.
Are you in a good mood? Yeppers.
Are you excited for something? Yeah, that everybody seems to be on the same page for once...and of course the Holidays.
Is there someone you can trust 100%? Nope.
Last person you said "I hate you" to? I don't know...I can't think of anyone...I don't say that very often and when I do, it's almost always a joke.
Will you talk to the person you like tonight? Well, I don't know...ask him.
Do you miss anyone? Absolutely.
What was the first thing you thought this morning? When I woke up at 3am like it was time to get up or when my alarm went off? When my alarm went off I thought, just 5 more minutes please.
What did you do last night? Went to KC for dinner and shopping...and I actually spent money on myself!!!
Do you like your bed? Yes...
Will this weekend be a good one? I hope so.
What were you doing at 7am this morning? I was in the shower ;-)
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more? Without a doubt!
Have you ever slept in a bed with the opposite sex? Uh...yeah.
What were the last words you said to your dad? I love you too...later.
What did you do last Saturday? Went to Top City to go to the burial for my uncle, watched the KU game and had lunch with the fam, and went to my first ever Passions Party with Meredith.
What woke you up this morning? My mind at 3am...not cool...well actually it was ok, because of what was on my mind, but anyway...the alarm clock went off at 6, 6:30, and 6:45...I finally listened to it at 6:45.
Is tomorrow going to be a good night? Hope so...don't have any plans just yet.
Who was the last person you rode in a car with besides family? Meredith
Who do you wish you were with right now? Hmmm....if you think it's you, you might just be right, but it never hurts to ask.
Who was the last person who left you a comment? I think Megs just left a comment on one of my facebook photos.
How did you and your number 2 become friends? My number two? I don't even know what that means....
Who was the last person you cried in front of? Dawn...I was slightly stressed out yesterday...thanks a lot Cupcake! Good news is it all worked out...so no worries. I'm not even sure why it made me cry in the first place...next question please!
Do you fall for people easily? IDK about that...if you can get and keep my curiousity I have no problem giving you attention...but I have a really low BS tolerance, so I'm more likely to be quick at moving on than falling hard.
What did you do this weekend? I went to an Alumni event Friday night, I already told you what I did Saturday, and Sunday I just did chores around the house.
Do you forgive or forget? I forgive, but I never forget.
What are you thinking about right now? Lots of things.
What time did you go to bed last night? 11:30ish
What are you currently doing? This and talking to Megan
Do you hate anyone? No, I don't like that word.
What was the last movie you watched? The Strangers...I don't recommend you watch it alone...thanks for not making me do so ;-)
Are you a beach or a snowy mountain person? Both.
Have you ever been tied to a chair? Yeah, my little brother was an ass when we were growing up! :-P
Where is the person who has your heart at this moment? I don't think anyone has my heart at this very moment...but feel free to work on that.
Can you handle the truth? Generally.
Did you cry today? No.
Is there anyone who understands your relationship status? Yeah...I think there are a couple of people who get it.
Monday, November 10, 2008
3 Things
There are three things on my mind at the moment: 1-It is cold and I don't the fact that it is dark before I ever leave the office, 2-Boys are impossible...and I do believe they like drama more than females, 3-My cousins need to pay closer attention...think a little beauties...learn from your older cousins because they will help you out.
1-It is cold and I don't like the fact that it is dark before I ever leave the office
It was cold and gloomy today and I'm just not ready for winter. It is so unmotivating when it is dark before you leave work. The best part about this time of year is basketball season, then of course the Holidays!
2-Boys are impossible...and I do believe they like drama more than females
Can we say...enough said?!?! I know all of my wonderful familiy members are writing a book, however, you'll have to leave this chapter out for awhile longer. This is one you're not going to get me to open up about just yet...but feel free to press your luck.
3-My cousins need to pay closer attention...think a little beauties...learn from your older cousins because they will help you out
I could go on forever with this one, but let's keep it simple. Never call a female a bitch where she or other people may read it. No matter how much of one she is being, keep that word to yourself! AND make sure the Natty Light is out of the shot before you take the picture!!! Tell your friends this one, because no matter what your parents did at your age it's not ok for you...go on, let them be naive just a little longer.
1-It is cold and I don't like the fact that it is dark before I ever leave the office
It was cold and gloomy today and I'm just not ready for winter. It is so unmotivating when it is dark before you leave work. The best part about this time of year is basketball season, then of course the Holidays!
2-Boys are impossible...and I do believe they like drama more than females
Can we say...enough said?!?! I know all of my wonderful familiy members are writing a book, however, you'll have to leave this chapter out for awhile longer. This is one you're not going to get me to open up about just yet...but feel free to press your luck.
3-My cousins need to pay closer attention...think a little beauties...learn from your older cousins because they will help you out
I could go on forever with this one, but let's keep it simple. Never call a female a bitch where she or other people may read it. No matter how much of one she is being, keep that word to yourself! AND make sure the Natty Light is out of the shot before you take the picture!!! Tell your friends this one, because no matter what your parents did at your age it's not ok for you...go on, let them be naive just a little longer.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
I Couldn't Wait
I really wanted to wait until I saw everyone next weekend, I just can't wait! Yesterday I got my hair cut! I do like it, however it is very different!
You know how I am, when I get stressed out or have a lot going on in my life I am always looking for some sort of change and a lot of times that comes in the form of a haircut. After emails with friends to get their opinions I decided to go for it. This time I made my way to The Silver Clipper with a photo of Rachel Ray. When I arrived at the salon, Edie asked me probably a dozen times if I was sure. I reassured her I was and that she better get started before I changed my mind. Although I was not in love with the way that she styled it yesterday, I do like the cut.
It is long enough to pull up with a few hairties and some bobby pins, but for the most part, it's gonna have to stay down. Which is a good thing, because I am the ponytail queen.
Overall, I love the cut! I will definitely be sticking with my flat iron. Forget the curling iron and hairspray...there is a reason I don't own either!
You know how I am, when I get stressed out or have a lot going on in my life I am always looking for some sort of change and a lot of times that comes in the form of a haircut. After emails with friends to get their opinions I decided to go for it. This time I made my way to The Silver Clipper with a photo of Rachel Ray. When I arrived at the salon, Edie asked me probably a dozen times if I was sure. I reassured her I was and that she better get started before I changed my mind. Although I was not in love with the way that she styled it yesterday, I do like the cut.
This photo is at Oak Park Mall yesterday. Although it is still curly, you should've seen it right after she was done. It was seriously out there. After running my fingers through it the entire drive down K-10, I got to this.
It is long enough to pull up with a few hairties and some bobby pins, but for the most part, it's gonna have to stay down. Which is a good thing, because I am the ponytail queen.Today I straightened my hair to be sure that I did really like the cut and I do! This was taken in the car today and I think it is much better than yesterdays!
Overall, I love the cut! I will definitely be sticking with my flat iron. Forget the curling iron and hairspray...there is a reason I don't own either!Saturday, November 8, 2008
NEW TO THIS
I am going to attempt to use this blog site to keep my family and friends posted on what's happening in my life. I have never really blogged before. I used notes a few times on facebook to write down my thoughts, however I mostly use it to do those silly questionnares.
I am fully aware that I don't make it home nearly enough. Thus, I would like to have a way for my friends and family to keep track of me.
This idea is thanks to Megan and Jeremiah as they have been bloggin about their new parenthood and keeping the world posted on Titus. Sherry has sent me photo after photo, as any proud grandparent would do. At the bottom of nearly every email is a reminder to check Megan's blog. With Megan, Jeremiah, and Titus in KC it is a great way for their families to keep updated on them. So thanks guys for letting me steal your idea!!!
I won't make any promises on how often I will blog or even that you will want to read what I decide to write. However, I will do my best. If there is anything you all would like to know about or if there is something I've forgotten to post, please let me know.
I am fully aware that I don't make it home nearly enough. Thus, I would like to have a way for my friends and family to keep track of me.
This idea is thanks to Megan and Jeremiah as they have been bloggin about their new parenthood and keeping the world posted on Titus. Sherry has sent me photo after photo, as any proud grandparent would do. At the bottom of nearly every email is a reminder to check Megan's blog. With Megan, Jeremiah, and Titus in KC it is a great way for their families to keep updated on them. So thanks guys for letting me steal your idea!!!
I won't make any promises on how often I will blog or even that you will want to read what I decide to write. However, I will do my best. If there is anything you all would like to know about or if there is something I've forgotten to post, please let me know.
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