Get with the program...part II ?

Ok, Sfar here you go. As promised my more lengthy response to your latest blog. Before I start, can I just say thank goodness for a double monitor so I can read along as I go. :)

Well lady, you're right...the best thing to do is "get off your ass and stop feeling sorry for yourself." and it is true that "Life's a bitch and this isn't front page news." However, it is so much easier to think that or tell a friend than to actually force yourself to do.

That said...I know that you are crushed that this opportunity didn't come to be reality...however, I wouldn't take it as complete rejection. This was something that you had been wokring on for a very long time and nothing you did has brought the economy to where it is today. Although, you shouldn't have put all your eggs in one basket it is so easy to do. When we want something so badly you can't help but to put all of your effort into it. Now that we are back to the drawing board, we just have to make sure that you stay focused on the dream and don't get held up with a stepping-stone to achieving that dream. As we look to the future there are multiple stepping-stones we will have to cross to reach our dreams and goals. Each step we take we will more than likely have multiple stones to choose from...we have to be sure that we don't try to land on one stone without closely looking at each of them. Ok...so that was totally dumb and cheesy, but you get my point. If you put all your effort into trying to get one opportunity, you may let something even better pass you by in the long run.

So, you've gotta have some faith, pull yourself together and get on to plan B...because I'm sure that Obama won't be sharing the wealth anytime soon! You are right, you can't have faith in anyone else...but if you have faith in yourself you'll get that dream...it just may not be by taking the path you set out on to begin with.

Let's look at your Dad's philosophy for a second..."face reality." Makes sense...have you done that yet? Reality is, you aren't going to be an intern at Sprint right now, you are still in Topeka re-learning lives most precious lessons from annoying kids day in and day out...but, it is also reality that your dream hasn't changed and that you can still get there. You can still get to Charlotte and you can still work in PR in some form related to NASCAR. The thing is, you just have to re-think how to get there.

I have faith in you Sfar, do you have it in yourself?

Now, for the most simple question...I'm not sure how you answered this, but I will answer it for myself:

If I don't see tomorrow would I be happy with the way I have lived my life?

Well, there are alwyas things we wish that we would have done a little differently or that we wish would have turned out a different way. But, I would say that in 2008 my life has come full circle. I have learned so much about myself as I have been faced with so many obstacles. Someday I would still like the chance to head to Charlotte with you or walk into an office at Allen Fieldhouse everyday...but more importantly I want to be there for my family and be just a phone call, a car ride, or a flight away. I have learned that you have to dream big and work for those dreams, but you have to remember that some times the most important things and just what you're looking for may be right in front of your face. Think about it. I started 2008 in a position in motorsports...I had an opportunity to go to Memphis and I let it go...good thing, because my family needed me more than ever this year...and truth be told, I needed them too. Now, with a lot of frustration and hundreds of resumes out the door I am so blessed to drive on to the campus of the University of Kansas everyday where I get to come to work representing the very thing that has driven me since I was a little girl. I have been a Jayhawk for as long as I can remember, I wanted nothing more than to attend the University of Kansas and walk down the Hill through the Campanile and into Memorial Stadium. I did just that, I have the piece of paper and student loan to prove it. Although I am not working with Athletes on a daily basis, I am still here a part of the tradition. It's a stepping-stone Sarah...one that may lead me down the hill to Naismith Drive and the most beautiful building in the country (Allen Fieldhouse) or one that could lead me back to Kansas City, to a dirt track between here and the east coast, or maybe even Charlotte, NC. Wherever this path may lead, I am thankful for the ride, and blessed with the lessons and experience...and yes, if I don't see tomorrow I would be happy with the way I have lived my life.

I love each and every one of you that has been a part of this journey called life...you are my family, my friends, my mentors...you have had a hand in who I have become and who I am still to be...thank you!