Low BS tolerance is getting lower

It's funny how when you meet someone new that you really like, you try to give them the benefit of the doubt just a little more than you normally would. Well, I must say this boy has gotten the benefit of the doubt a lot more than I normally would give it. I'm not sure why. However, I am sure that it's not going to last much longer. You all know how I am, I hit that wall...the one where I say to myself, this is BS I'm not dealing with it any more. I'm sure that's probably why I am single now and have put up with $hitheads most of my adult life. The thing is, I am also fully aware that if I don't begin to work on my patience, that I will probably run off, or run away from rather, some really great guys.

I am trying to go with the flow when it comes to Nick...I am trying to stay patient and just enjoy what I'm living...but here's the deal:

~I will not sit at home and wait...unless you are very specific about when I can expect to see you.
~I will not call and text you all the time...this needs to be even, I'm not a chaser here...don't need to be!
~I will not fight for you or with you. There are many other people that would be happy to give me undivided attention...I will not compete for yours AND I will not fight with you unless it is a fight that needs to be had...so little attitudes will get on my nerves quick! I've had too many fights over nothing and I won't do that again.
~Being vague or avoiding a conversation will only send me back to what I know from my past...I hate to be always questioning everything...so just speak up.
~Honesty is always best...no matter what!
~Communication is key...like what's going on in your life communication, not just what's up, did you see the game, etc.
~Patience is power...but sometimes I just don't have any!
~Time with your boys for you and my girls for me is essential, but time together is also very important.
~I am not a puppet, so don't think you can string me along until I fit into your schedule...it just doesn't work that way.
~Neither one of us is really that busy...if we want to make time for each other we will...just like that...so I will never be too busy to pick up the phone or catch a movie and I will never believe that you are too busy so don't try that excuse.

I'm sure there are a million more things I could add to this list. Don't get me wrong, Nick is a great guy and he isn't doing anything wrong. I just have a very low BS tolerance and when I start to recognize this then things that I have been blowing off start to get noticed. The list above just includes some of the points that I have to remind myself so I don't fall back into old patterns of old relationships that just don't work. After my last breakup I vowed to myself that I would re-evaluate my standards and not settle for anything less than what I deserve. It is easy to forget this and fall into whatever gets comfortable.

I like Nick a lot and so far things seem to be going well, but today I felt like I needed to reflect a minute on a few of the things that are important for me to remember as our relationship (or whatever the hell you want to call it) continues to grow.

For now, I am living in the moment and loving every minute of it...and I plan to continue to do just that!

Love you all!
~Jen :-)